quick question la'ang

paano ba ang maging prim and proper?
l can't count the ways.
wah.

non-happy

"are you unhappy?",i've been asked this for the nth time last night.

wah.
am i?

let me put it this way, I am happy.
I am happy, yes I am.

there are just some things that make me frown this past few days or weeks, for this matter.

so as to dissolve these into thin molecules, here's a list:

1. i've been overworkin. not that i'm obliged, imjust being addicted to harassing myself by not resting at all.

2. ironically, i'm burn out. there's so much to say yet i'm so lazy to explain.

3. being bothered because of "hala! ang payat payat mo masyado!" remarks, said way too loudly to ignore.

4. defective c510 sony ericsson phone. yes, the one i just bought last month.

5. not having enough time to read my books.

6. superiority complex infested people that plagues my day.

7. shatting isn't getting easier.

8. nostalgic dreams.

9. missing the parents soooo much.

10. boy anghel utak polboron pa rin.


i'm happy.
true.
sayawan pa kita ng halukay ube. *wink*

utopia

i saw you once. you stared. you did.
you might not have looked, really.
but you took one glimpse.
as they would put it in that song,
"it's a threefold Utopian dream".
how do you define happiness?
i want to know.
and, too,
in wishes and songs.
it's me
my name
what i have
that spells it.
your happiness, personified.

latest addiction

TADAAAAN!!!

The Backyardigans!!!

Hi, I'm Pablo.
My name's Tyrone.
I'm Uniqua.
I'm Tasha.
And my name is Austin.
And we're ...


Your backyard friends, the Backyardigans!
Together in the backyard again,
In the place where we belong,
Where we'll prob'ly sing a song,
And we'll maybe dance along.

We've got the whole wide world in our yard to explore.
We always find things we've never seen before.
That's why every day we're back for more
With your friends, the Backyardigans.

to mama, with so much love

and why i celebrate today:

1. you have promised to love papa above and beyond the context of marriage.
2. you have agreed to be a mother biologically to me and merlou, and whole heartedly to kuya kris, kelly, ate kareen, kuya karlo and kuya patrick.
3. because merlou dave won't be as happy as he is now without his "mama" in you.
4. because 23 years and 21 days ago, you have endured a 48 hour labor before giving birth to me.
5. for giving me a pa-star name that you consistently tell me na unique at lagi naman namimiss-spell at miss-pronounce, nevertheless, i can't and won't imagine having a name other than ma. pheona monica. aww, you dropped the monica pala. lucky me.
6. you have instilled the value of family, love, forgiveness and positive outlook towards life and living it.
7. for not sending me home after three months of my "testing" studies in tacloban.
8. for naming after me our garments manufacturing business. hahaha! sosyalan lang!
9. be cause you let me hug you alooooot and..
10. for hugging me so tight when i'm sleeping.

ten is microscopic. enumerating the number of times that you stand by the term and your role as a mother is a futile attempt. you've done so much and getting in return less. the pureness of your heart is the safe blanket that keeps me and noynoy going and getting tough wherever we're going.

we love you

and we intend to show it

in all the more-than-one ways that we know of.

love is a word you're spelling out for us

and that we'll say out loud back to you

through all it's possible definition.

happy mother's day mama!