pre-birthday blues

(translation: sheer pag-iinarte)



in eight days time i'll be 23.
23 is a pretty age, i know.
it should be a time when you already know what is going to be good or bad for you:
people
places
time
and emotion.
i know i shouldn't be
scared
but
yes
i
AM.


i don't know where the anxiety here was born.
all i know is that along the way of moving out of region 8 and facing the lots of manila,
it was reared.
anxious of what's in store for me for the coming months.
i want to know which of those will terrify me,
and
which will bring out the best in M.E. (maphene esteria) hehe.

whew!

i'm still not used in putting into words and cultivating through it
these monsters in my head.
surprises are surprises.
life won't be life without it.

yes.
yet.

i still think surprises should be more happy surprises when you are 23.

whew! whew!

well, this litil gerl here is still and of course happy looking forward to an exciting 23 as she had a blast being 22.


PAUNAWA: (parang CR lang. hehe.)

for those who had the fancy of reading this:

don't forget your gift!
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'yawg kalimot ug regalo, beh!
waray maglilimot sa regalo!